First day of school! Here’s to the first day of the rest of my life…
Best advice I read today….
“I think if you like somebody you have to tell them. It might be embarrassing to say it, but you will never regret stepping up.”
I’m re-reading this book, Blue Like Jazz. I read it several years ago, and really liked it. I saw it sitting on my bookshelf and I had a sudden urge to pick it up, dust it off, and read it again. I’ve found that I enjoy “re-ing” things. When I “re-whatever” I always have a new and different perspective on it, and maybe some more experience so that it affects me differently. And that is exactly what is going on by re-reading this book. I’ve experienced a lot, grown up some, and inevitably I’m a few years older. My understanding is more mature and developed. I’m reading passages in this book and loving the fresh perspective. Donald Miller’s words are so real to me. They hit home. I love that his way of thinking is how I tend to think, and how I want to think. He puts into words things I cannot. Today, this particular part of a chapter titled “Faith” jumped out at me…”I had no explanation for Laura. I don’t think there is an explanation. My belief in Jesus did not seem rational or scientific and yet there was nothing I could do to separate myself from this belief. I think Laura was looking for something rational, because she believed that all things that were true were rational. But that isn’t the case. Love, for example, is a true emotion, but it is not rational. What I mean is, people actually feel it. I have been in love, plenty of people have been in love, yet love cannot be proved scientifically. Neither can beauty. Light cannot be proved scientifically, and yet we all believe in light and by light see all things. I think one of the problems Laura was having was that she wanted God to make sense. He doesn’t. He will make no more sense to me than I will make sense to an ant.” This made me realize, I’m Laura. I never realized this the first time I read the book. All I read was words, and I didn’t get it. This time around, I got it. It’s not required that I understand everything that’s going on and why and He’s telling me, “It’s okay that everything doesn’t make sense and you don’t get it at times. Keep believing and we’ll get through this together.” Pretty cool realization for a Tuesday afternoon….
Memorial Day weekend is supposed to be full of a whole lot of sunshine that allows for camping, barbecuing, hanging out with friends and family, and all sorts of summer like activities. This weekend brings the anticipation of the coming summer months to its peak. Most people were bummed out with the forecast this year. And even though the sunshine would have been most enjoyable I found myself walking through the rain smiling the biggest smile and thinking to myself, “this day is SO BEAUTIFUL!” Actually, if I will be completely honest, I thought those words out loud for no one in particular to hear, but to just solidify everything I was feeling at that time in that exact location. Even with the rain falling on my face and the cold wind blowing all around me I couldn’t stop walking along the deserted rims. I kept finding rocks bigger and bigger than the last and climbing to the top of them to look out over a Billings that was covered with a misty blanket. It was indeed a colorless day, but for me standing atop the rims looking out I saw the dull grays bursting with the colors of life. I stood, I looked, and I breathed in as much life as I could.